On
Mother’s Day my sincere prayer for all of the mothers of addicts out there is
that, today and every day, you find peace, strength, and comfort. May we rest assured that the good Lord who loves
us and our addicted or recovering children more than we can even understand, is
there for us every step of the way, and that we need never travel this road
alone.
I remember
last Mother’s Day as if it were yesterday.
My son came by in the morning disheveled, and probably high. He wished me a happy Mother’s Day and
promised to be back later to eat at the family get together I had planned. He didn’t come back. His chair sat empty, and even though similar
scenarios had happened many times over the years, my heart still hurt, still
wanted to believe he would show up.
Addiction is a cruel master. This
year he is in recovery, but still faces the consequences of his actions while
addicted. His hearing is next week, and
I have to face my complete powerlessness over the outcome. He faces a possible 7-12 year sentence. So, I
pray, and I work on surrendering and handing my son completely over to the
Lord. It’s hard, and I know that no
matter how hard I fight it, I will wrestle with my fears, and I will have
sleepless nights. The only thing that
gets me through is knowing that Jesus walks with me, and He walks with my son. Whatever the court’s decision is, He will
give us strength to make it through. One
day at a time.
I will be praying for your son's court hearing. I like you don't know how I would have gotten through all I have without God walking beside me. I also know what you mean that even when we hand them over to God that we still have our fears and sleepless nights. We do the best we can on any given day and that is okay. Like you last year my son was still actively using and his day in court came last July, it turned out to be a blessing, he is serving 18 months in drug/DWI court and honestly it is the best thing that could have ever happened to him. This Mother's Day was quiet and peaceful, thank you God for the times of refreshing that you bring.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Erin. I'll be praying that these 18 months will help your son find lasting sobriety.
DeleteI hope whatever happens at the hearing, that you and your son are both at peace with it and I hope he continues to do well. I know our happiness as parents isn't supposed to depend on how our kids are doing...but it sure does help when they're doing ok.
ReplyDeleteThank you. No matter how hard I try, I find that if one of my kids is suffering, I can't be completely at peace. I'm working on it, but it's so hard.
DeleteThere is NO WAY I could walk through this journey without my Lord.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for the hearing. A dear friend of mine sat in the courtroom about 18 months ago to hear the mandatory 12 year sentence come down to her son. We sat 35 strong in the courtroom, holding up her arms just as Aaron and Hur did when Moses could no longer hold them up.
She is sad but at peace. Her son is safe, sober and learning to lean on Jesus.
Peace.
Thank you for your prayers lulu. Please keep them coming. Your friend was very blessed to be surrounded by people who love her. I'm sure that brought her much comfort.
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