On Mother’s Day my sincere prayer for all of the mothers of addicts out there is that, today and every day, you find peace, strength, and comfort. May we rest assured that the good Lord who loves us and our addicted or recovering children more than we can even understand, is there for us every step of the way, and that we need never travel this road alone.
I remember last Mother’s Day as if it were yesterday. My son came by in the morning disheveled, and probably high. He wished me a happy Mother’s Day and promised to be back later to eat at the family get together I had planned. He didn’t come back. His chair sat empty, and even though similar scenarios had happened many times over the years, my heart still hurt, still wanted to believe he would show up. Addiction is a cruel master. This year he is in recovery, but still faces the consequences of his actions while addicted. His hearing is next week, and I have to face my complete powerlessness over the outcome. He faces a possible 7-12 year sentence. So, I pray, and I work on surrendering and handing my son completely over to the Lord. It’s hard, and I know that no matter how hard I fight it, I will wrestle with my fears, and I will have sleepless nights. The only thing that gets me through is knowing that Jesus walks with me, and He walks with my son. Whatever the court’s decision is, He will give us strength to make it through. One day at a time.